DID YOU KNOW I NEVER WANTED TO BE A COACH?
I didn't want to do NLP, I most certainly didn't want to do Hypnotherapy, and I definitely didn't feel I was ever good enough to be a coach.
A dear friend asked me, do people ever know why you do what you do, and I was like, I am sure they do, but with so many new friends and followers, I want you to understand more about me so here goes and be ready to bewildered!
You can most probably see the confident style, the funky photos, and the blinding testimonials, #justsaying they are real - but BELIEVE YOU ME I was never like this before.
I do love a photo, ask anyone who used to go out raving with me and YES I WAS A FULL-TIME MOFO RAVERRR!! And I don't regret it for one minute. It's where I came alive! It's where I felt FREE!. Its where I literally danced my big size 8s away when my toes never felt numb LOL - different story now mind!
Despite the funky lifestyle, IN MY HEAD I was a wreck and it wasn't until I became a coach, that I realized just how much I WAS IN MY HEAD.
You see, my purpose is to serve. My passion is to help. My whole life I always wanted to do that SERVE AND HELP. But I didn't know-how.
I was SO STUBBORN, that I always ignored the signs, ie. set up a business, start a business, you are going to be a millionaire, but I'd rather have worked hard for my money, then worked hard at being an entrepreneur.
I was a slave to the system, both mentally and physically, and when I decided to coach, because thanks to NWM, (MLM) I found my passion for helping others grow, but then again, I still wasn't very good at it.
MY GOD WAS I MESS! Everything was half-hearted! Everything was a struggle! EVERYTHING was a drama! PROCRASTINATING! MAKING EXCUSES! and being a moaning Minnie!!!
BUT WHY THOUGH? WHY ME? WHY CAN'T I JUST BUILD A BUSINESS? WHY CAN'T I BE LIKE OTHERS? WHY won't NO ONE HELP ME??
These were the questions going through my HEAD 24/7!!!
I kept exploding! I kept crying! I JUST DIDN'T FEEL GOOD ENOUGH.
So how can someone, who acted confident, felt like total shit didn't have her shit together, build a coaching business from scratch???
You see, it's not about having it all together, and then BAM! You are a success! I mean success is different for everyone. It's not about having the bulletproof mindset, or getting everything right first time around, I MEAN MY GOD the mishaps, and mistakes I made, like paying shit loads of money for crappy coaches who just con you - YES I did that too!
There were days, and still are, days where I can't be fucked! I don't get what I want, there are days where my business seems like WHY THE FUCK DID BOTHER RESONATE AT ALL?
SO WHATS THE DIFFERENCE?
NOTHING IS SIMPLE, NOTHING IS EASY, But you can simplify your growth by seeing the ease in every lesson you grow through as that's what it's about.
GROWING! GOING! MOVING! TAKING ACTION. and you hear people talk about it ALL THE TIME and it's like BLAH BLAH YEAH YEAH but it's true, the reason why you are frustrated with it, is because YOU KNOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT! and most probably frustrated because you DON'T KNOW WHY YOU CAN'T.
This is why I am good at what I do because I KNOW. I been that person, I have been you, and forever learning to grow and going forward.... It can be done, when you totally believe in you and your purpose, and when you do find it, because you let go of the self-sabotage and the overwhelm when you find it fun when you get over the nervy nelly anxiety, it's like WOAH - wtf was I stressing about?
This is what entrepreneurship is like - doing what you love, at something you are so shit hot at, and facing the crap days no matter how tough it gets, because believe you me, it does but because you know how to face it, you just do it!!
It truly is about belief, faith, trust - especially when you are guided onto the right path; you just need someone to show you your blind spots.